Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Christmas 2007

What a magical time of the year, and sharing it with a s and a half year old made it even more special.

Ellyse is at quite a strange age as far as understanding Christmas is concerned. She knows and loves Santa and got the idea to ask him for gifts, but didn't really get the idea of waiting until Christmas night.

When we visited Santa at Myer, she asked him for a baby (she had been asking to take babies home from the shops and I had explained to her a number of times that Santa may bring her one for Christmas and suggested that she asked him for one). When Santa gave her the little gift bag she gave it back and said "no thank you I would like a baby please". It was very cute but also a little embarassing too.

Ellyse left a note for Santa along with a glass of milk and some rum balls. She loved 'writing' the note with daddy.

Both our little darlings woke at 7 Christmas morning, we had to remind Ellyse that Santa had been, she still didn't really get it. We took her out to show her the swing set he had left for her, she put one toe on the grass and discovered it was wet and decided to go back inside. She had a great time opening her other gifts, a giant floor puzzle, a Gracie Lou DVD and her stocking which included hair ties, books and jelly beans.

Then it was off to my parent's house, they live just around the corner making life easy! We opened gifts there, ate ham and runny eggs. It was very quiet at mum and dad's as neither of my sisters made the trip home this year. Very different to last year where we had everyone here for my sister's wedding. We put Ashton to bed and got ourselves ready for lunch at Keiran's parent's house. We had a lovely lunch and the gourmet nibbles and potato salad I made went down a treat. Ellyse and Ashton were both spoilt to bits and Ellyse was so pleased to recieve a baby with a dummy and a bottle from her Aunty. Kris Kringle was fun, my SIL ended up with the bag I made, I found it hard to tell if she liked it or not???

We came home at about 4:30, all very tired and ready for a sleep. We had a great day and look forward to next year when Ellyse should really be enchanted by it all.

Here are some of my favourite photos of Christmas 2007.

Enjoying the carols

Christmas lights

Christmas morning

Ashton enjoying the presents, well the wrapping anyway

Ellyse in her cousin's make up!

Some wonderful homemade gifts from a friend

I hope you all had a magical Christmas with your loved ones.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Jack's quilt

At Millipede's request I will show a photo of this baby quilt I made for a friend's new little baby. I am glad the photo is at a distance as the sewing isn't that great. You would think I I would have learnt from Ellyse's quilt that pins are the key when quilting! I think I will be investing in a walking foot very soon.

This is for a little boy and the idea is for it to be used as a play mat rather than a quilt for bed.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Suddenly so sad, where do I fit in??

I apologise in advance for the emotional ramblings this post will contain. I am not thinking carefully about what I am writing or how I am writing I just need to clear my head.

July 22nd 2007, I was 10 days over due with our much wanted second child. My waters broke at about 5 am and I started having contractions at about 7. Things progressed quickly and by 9 am I could barely walk to the car. We got to the hospital at about 9:35, I couldn't walk and had the shakes very badly. The midwife routinely checked the baby's heartbeat, and that is where the comotion began.
I think that firstly she called another midwife and I was yelling "what is wrong? Cut me open, get the baby out!" They told me that heart rate was really slow but everything would be alright. I was having gas and must have been suckinghard, the midwife had her hand on my tummy and told me not to suck when I wasn't having a contraction - I said "but I am having a contraction", I think it was then that they realised I was in serious pain that wasn't caused by contractions. The doctor came and checked for the chord, I was 10 cm dialated at this time. One of the last things I remember is the doctor calling code 1 caesar (which I now know if 10 minutes for the baby to be born), I was asked to move to a different bed, I mustered up all of my strength just to lift my legs and bottom. The last thing I remember is the gas mask going on and being put under.
I don't remember waking up, I don't remember being told I had a little boy, I don't remember Keiran there with me. I do remember being shown a photo of him in special care nursery and not really being concerned (was still very groggy), I remember going to see him and having to turn around and go back because I thought I was going to vomit. I remember Keiran telling me that he may have to be transferred to another hospital - but it just didn't really register. I also remember being told that my placenta had completely abrupted from my uterus and that Ashton had no blood supply meaning no oxygen. They couldn't tell me how long he was without oxygen for, or why it happened, just bad luck apperantly.
The next day it hit me big time and I cried and cried. Everyone said to me (and still continue to say) just be thankful you have him, but this was, and isn't ever enough, I had been through a huge ordeal.
The recovery from the caesar was difficult, no complications, just so hard to get out of bed, turn, cuddle Ellyse and pick up my precious newborn. I wasn't too concerned though, I had my little boy and I didn't really care how he arrived. The doctor told me that a natural birth would have resulted in Ashton dieing or being brain damaged, so I am not complaining at all about how he was born.
I really found the first 6 weeks tough. The first 2 were wonderful, plenty of visitors, lots of home cooked meals being delivered for us. Then Keiran went back to work, my mum went overseas for 6 weeks and I was alone all day with a baby and a toddler who wasn't used to sharing mummy. The logisitics of 2 kids was fine, I could feed them, dress them, get them organised, it was more the reaction Ellyse had that upset me. I knew to expect it but I didn't know how I would feel about it. All in all she coped quite well, there were just times when she was so nasty to Ashton and it just wasn't in her nature. I really grieved for the life we had before Ashton. I am such a structure and routine person and newborns just aren't like that. Ashton started having 45 minute sleeps and was grumpy and some days were really long. There were many times where I wondered why on earth we had complicated our lives with another baby. I didn't ever resent Ashton, or not want him in our family, it was, and is, plain hard work! I have been completely spoilt with a loving, happy 2 year old who rarely threw a tanty before Ashton was born, so to have her change behaviours so suddenly caught me by suprise.
When Ashton was about 5 weeks old I had some counselling, I didn't find it that helpful as she told me that I had already dealt with a lot of issues and time would heal - gee thanks. I had identified what I was sad about but really needed strategies to deal with that.
Well here we are 5 months down the track and I saw an old neighbour at the shops on Saturday. I was telling her about Ashton when suddenly I burst into tears and couldn't stop crying. I was just so suddenly sad and I have been ever since. I think there are a few reasons for this. Firstly as Ashton grows and changes and is developing a personality I am more aware of what I could have lost. I look at him laughing and smiling and am just so in love and realise that he was so nearly not here. Secondly, the next baby in mother's group was born last week and when I went to see them in hospital the mum was up, walking around, squating on the ground, all the things I couldn't do. She had lots of photos from the birth, again something I missed out on and have no idea about. I was on the phone to her this morning and she was telling me how much love she feels for the little one, how she has bonded so well and she just loves having 2 kids. It hit me that I was just so down and negative at that time in Ashton's life that I didn't feel like that towards him, that just makes me so sad.
I know I have reasons to be sad, but I haven't lost anything, I was able to bring my baby home where so many others can't. Do I have a right to be sad? It is just so hard to put my finger on my feelings. Crying helps, and listening to my wonderful husband's supportive words, but at the end of the day I still feel that I have complely missed his newborn stage. I was stressing about Ellyse, about his sleep and just trying to deal with myself physically. The caesar meant I couldn't start exercising for a while, my tummy just seemed so much bigger and it hung over that scar, a constant reminder of what I had been through.
As big an experience that this all was, it is still so small in the scheme of my life and Ashton's life. I know the pain will fade, but it will always be there.
I hope that I haven't offended anyone with my feelings. If you got this far thank you so much for reading. I have tears falling down my face, but I do feel a big weight off my shoulders just getting it off my chest.

I love my little boy so much, my how he has grown!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

My Secret Santa gifts for Kerry and her family

Kerry is a very busy lady with 6 gorgeous kids and one on the way, I was so happy to have her as my secret santa.
I am sure Kerry won't mind me sharing what I made for her.
Firstly I made her some Christmas bunting, it seems that was a very popular choice this year. I made it reversable so that it can be used for the girls' birthdays or just to hang in one of their rooms. I had plenty of pink scraps so this was not a problem!!

Then I decided to make these advent pockets, wow were they time consuming, but I loved every relaxing minute sitting down stitching those numbers on, all the time thinking of the wonderful things Kerry and her family would be doing together at Christmas. On the dangles were little tasks that the family could complete together in the lead up to Christmas. In her package were some craft sheets to help, glitter and bags for the reindeer food, candy canes, hooks to hang things up with, popcorn to have while watching a Christmas movie and a recipe for candy cane cookies.

Sorry for the dodgy photos, it was a last minute thought to take them.

Merry Christmas Kerry and family!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Secret Santa has arrived

I was so excited to recieve a big parcel at my door on Monday, I had to look at it for 2 days without opening it, but today is opening day and boy were we all spoilt!

Suz made us the most beautiful table runner which is just perfect. It shows how small our table is though! She also sent Keiran a gift, a toy for Ashton and some buttons. Oh I forgot to mention the little teddy decoration for our tree, Ellyse just loves that!

Thanks again Suz.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Christmas outfit 2007

I finally got the motivation to make Ellyse a little Christmas outfit, I made this in one hour flat yeterday morning after Keiran announced that we were infact going to a Christams party that I thought we weren't going to.

I took Suz's and Kylie's advice and made it a little longer than the pattern, I didn't make it any less twirly, but am thinking of maybe reducing it a little. The top is too small, but was the only white shirt I had, will have to get another one tomorrow.

She just thought she was so special in her boofitul skirt......and she kept telling everyone!

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

It's beginning to smell a lot like Christmas

For as long as I can remember my Mum has made rum balls at Christmas time. Gifts for teachers, family and friends, making the rum balls has always been a family occassion. We would all sit around the table and mix and roll until we were all done. With my mother's organisational skills, this was usually late at night before they were required as gifts! Really I should add that my Mum always worked really hard and it is commendable that she took the time to make hand made presesnts.

This morning I got all of my ingredients ready and started making my first batch of rum balls for this season, as soon as I smelt that rum mix with the condensed milk it all came back to me and suddenly it felt like Christmas time.
Ellyse had a wonderful time putting the Christmas tree up over the weekend, I am really enjoying this time with her, she really understands Christmas and what is going on. Only 20 more nights of "Is Santa coming tonight Mummy?" We are off to look at some Christmas lights this week and I just can't wait to capture the excitment.

And just for fun, Keiran and I hadn't put our stockings up yet, and we came out to find Ellyse 'dressed' in them, it was just so cute. I was going to post a pic but decided not too.

Friday, November 30, 2007

One bag down....2 more to go

I ordered this gorgeous fabric with the vision to make 3 bags, one for each of my sisters, one to London and one to Japan, and one for a Kris Kingle present for Keiran's side of the family. The lovely Cass sent me the pattern for the bag she made in the bag swap. I am so impressed as she drafted the pattern herself and it is perfect.

I am just fighting with the magnetic clasps and then just need to topstitch around the top and I am done. I just wanted to make one first to be sure it was what I was after.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Finally the new hat is finished

I was so sad when my mum lost this hat I made Ellyse, it was one of the first things I made her when I started sewing again.(she looks so little in that photo - and chubby!)

It was made from a thrifted sheet, but I just loved it. Unfortunately I threw the sheet out so couldn't replicate it, but finally I have made her another hat and I am in love!

I started this hat about 2 months ago and completely mucked up the brim, I got back to it today and finished it in about 20 minutes! It is a bit small for her now, will have to get another pattern, but she should get this summer out of it.

I just love the fabric which is by Heather Baily. I couldn't get a great photo but I have made it reversable.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Cowpoke Drawing Case

I am really happy with how these turned out. Not too many decapitated cowboys! I love the check with it, eventhough Keiran told me I needed a solid coulour as the initial didn't stand out enough! I tended to agree but love the look of it on the inside!

Monday, November 05, 2007

The little blue car

I just love it when the little blue car pulls up outside our house, and the lady with the bleach blonde hair so happily walks up our garden stairs and calls out "mail!" This is what happened today and I was so excited! She must love her job, seeing people so pleased to be recieving things they have been waiting for, or better still being suprised with.

I have been eagerly awaiting the arrival of some fabric I ordered from the humming mini, some very cute cowboy fabric destined to become more little artists drawing cases. I was pleasently suprised to find some freddo frogs in there for Ellyse and a big package wrapped for me. Helen had sent her raggedy edged quilt as a loving gift for Ashton. Thank you Helen, the blanket Cass made us gets a work out every day so now we can alternate! The colours are so bright and cheerful.

Here are both kids loving the quilt!

And lastly just a little Happy 85th Birthday wish to my Granny, you are an inspiration, we are lucky to have you as a Grandma and Ellyse and Ashton are so blessed to havea Great Grandma. This photo was taken at my cousin's wedding on Saturday.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

One down, about six to go!

I am so pleased to have finally finished my first (well second really) little artists drawing case. I first saw the tutorial here, Linda is publishing a book with a new and revised version of this case, I will be keeping my eye out for it that's for sure!

Just waiting on some cowboy fabric to arrive from The Humming Mini and I can get started on some for two little boys from Mothers Group that I drew for secret santa.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

All this Christmas talk.. me thinking how much I enjoyed Christmas with Ellyse last year, and now a year later it is just going to be so much more fun. I know how excited she will be now that she can understand the concept a little better.

Putting the tree up last year was such a special day, I can't wait to do it agian.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Our home and our family!

This is our house before -

Actually no, it was a lot worse than that, in this photo we had already cleared the few trees that were there, include 3 huge date palms that we managed to sell, and we had the roof recoloured from a lovely shade of peach, and we put the cedar blinds in.

I cried for a week when we signed the contract for this house, but prices were soaring and we really wanted to buy in this particular suburb.

My husband has studied horticulture and the like for many years and until recently has always worked in that field, he was just bursting to create a wonderful tropical garden for our family!

Well here we are 5 years, and a lot of hard work later and I am constantly amazed at our garden. We just spent 2 days weeding and mulching and complaining about how many more plants we need to fill open spaces and what doesn't look so good. Then I look back at the first photo in amazement at how far we have come! I just went and captured some lovely snaps of our tropical garden.

And after-

Some beautiful colour in our garden

And by the way, I still absolutely hate the look of our house, but the good thing is you can't really see it from the street now. And after 2 months of renovations when we first bought it the inside is almost like new. We are just deciding now whether to extend the house to include a rumpus room, or to sell and move?? Not sure I can part with all of our hard work!

And just because it has been over a month since I have posted here is one of my two adorable children.

Oh and how could I forget the newest addition to our family - Jessie/Jesse the bird. Ellyse was in love for the first day or too, now it is something extra for Mummy and Daddy to look after!

Friday, September 21, 2007

Ellyse teaching Ashton the art of breastfeeding

Ellyse's obsession with breastfeeding began long before I had Ashton, but since I have had him she has only become more curious. She just loves to help him feed by squeazing my breast and telling him to come on.

Tonight's bath time just hit an all time high though with her telling him to "feed pooh bear booby please Ashton", then she went on to say "this is how you do it" squeazing her little booby just like I do to attach Ashton. It was just adoerable, all so innocent and loving!

I just had to share the pictures.

Whilst I am at it I will include some studio photos we had taken last week. Not usually my style but got a 'free' sitting and 8x10 so thought why not. Got sucked in and bought a little package....but honestly how could I not? My little baby girl looks so grown up!

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Thank you Corrie

I recieved a wonderful package from Corrie yesterday to celebrate the arrival of Ashton. Thanks so much Corrie, I just love everything you chose to send to me.

In the parcel was

a vintage girls pattern

5 pieces of fabric - forgive me for not knowing designer's names, they are just adorable

frog stickers - Ellyse just had to have one right away

little japanese tissues

cute themed sticky tape

little iron on ducks

and a cute embroided all in one for Ashton

I can't wait to get into my sewing again and use the wonderful fabrics. Thanks again. I will post a pic of Ashton in the little suit when he wears it.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Happy Father's Day

We had a lovely day today, we went to Manly and had lunch with Dad (Mum is overseas visiting my sisters, she is in London at the moment). There were markets on and Ellyse had a go on the jumping castle and the monster blow up slide. She asked for a turn but I didn’t really think she would do it, but she did and absolutely loved it, I think she had about 5 goes. I had a 10 minute massage which was just divine!, but not long enough We came home and both Ashton and Ellyse went to bed at the same time so I got a rest too (while Keiran mowed the lawn!!).

I hope you all had a fantastic day with your loved ones.

Here are some photos of our day and some others of little Ashton, 6 weeks today!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Where has the time gone?

Firstly, I cannot believe that I have had this blog for 12 months. I was thinking the other day it must be close and I checked and it was the 26th August. WOW, it feels like yesterday that I started sewing for my sweet little girl and that I met all of you wonderful ladies.
Secondly, Ashton is now 5 and a half weeks old so I thought I would share some new pics of him. Now he is smiling it is so much more fun having him in our family, at least a little reward for all the feeding, nappy changing and getting up at night! Ellyse is becoming more accepting of her new brother and has not intentionally hurt him since Saturday last week, a huge achievement for her! Hopefully that is the result of me going over and over and over with her the nice way to touch babies and role playing, praising etc. I was getting quite over it but maybe it has paid off!

Anyway here are some pics

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Wonderful gifts from Novy

It has been said before what a wonderful and special little group we have here. I truely do feel blessed to be part of a lovely little community that makes me feel welcome and cared for.

I had some lovely gifts arrive in the mail yesterday from Novy. A lovely little outfit for Ashton and a gorgeous corduroy skirt for Ellyse. Both were proudly modelled this morning. Ellyse didn't take the skirt off all day - well until nap time where she told me "we don't wear skirts to bed mummy, we wear pants" How old is that girl?

Novy's work is just beautiful, so professionally presented - I know I have said this before when we recieved a swap parcel from her.

Thanks so much Novy for thinking of us and taking the time to make gifts for my children (that sounds weird!)